To much to do and not enough time

Does anyone else suffer from wanting to do to many unrelated things? I remember my undergrad adviser once asking me if I had decided on a major. I told here I was between three or four departments (I ended up double majoring), and she was sorta shocked. She said that her experience was that students either had one in mind, or were ambivalent towards everything. Well, that issue I had years ago has become an ongoing struggle ... almost the theme of my life so far. For this reason I find it helpful to keep lists. For example, I have a list of jobs I'd like to try if I decide that chasing money isn't a race I'm entering. This list includes but is not limited to:
- Professional runner (love running)
- Photographer (love b & w photos)
- Premier scholar of archaeoastronomy (whoo hoo Incas!)
- Truck driver (I do want to wander)
- Window washing ( love heights)
- Barista (love coffee)
- Flower shop owner (love flowers)
- Bookstore worker (love books)
- Landscaper (love physical labor outdoors)
- Guide... as in wilderness (love the wilderness)
- Tutor (love subjects I can teach)
- House flipper (love real estate)
- Personal Trainer (love being in shape and encouraging others to be inshape)
Well, that's all off the top of my head. The path I'm currently pursuing is more of the money chasing path... but ask anyone and I'm definitely not passionate about it. It's probably more about doing whats expected of me - willingly and with full awareness though. Although the technology is fun. How about a world were we can all just switch jobs from time to time... that's gotta even out for everyone. So, what does someone do? Do you go for the gold ... or personal fulfillment? Do you ask yourself this everyday? Or is just the fact that I'm asking it imply that the latter is the correct choice for me? Did I just answer myself?

The VT Tragedy

It's been one week since the massacre at Virginia Tech, and still I cannot believe it happened. The worst part of all of this is that ultimately, nothing will change. Our gun culture will continue to shoot along as it always has, and no lessons will be learned. As the media will continue to fixate on this horrible event, not once will they say... "Ya know, maybe there's something wrong with all of us." They'll continue to search for blame, looking as far as Korea to point a finger, but it will never be pointed at our culture. This is why I cry. People masquerade as if they know the answer, as if they can prevent this from happening again, but their solutions are as viable as paper mache houses for the homeless. Fly flags at half mast ... moments of silence... as if anyone really cares. Turn in your handguns, rifles, your own suspicions and paranoias of your neighbors.

I think it's us, we the self righteous masses of America, who are to blame. Everyone is concerned with their own rights, their own protection again their evil neighbors. Why isn't the solution to trust each other? If everyone was brought up trusting their neighbors, why wouldn't you trust them. I believe a person assumes others to be in nature what they themselves are. If you don't trust your neighbor, then you are the type not to be trusted. If you believe strangers are evil, then perhaps it is you who are evil. You see in others what you see in yourself. Clearly I do not understand the need for semi or fully automatic weapons to be at the disposal of the general public.

Please justify this madness! It has become difficult to pay attention to current events without crying, and while my eyes do appear bluer when I'm teary eyed, it's not exactly conducive to being productive.